Called to Become Light (2)
Is this only about the Holy Spirit? Yes and no. About the Holy Spirit first and foremost. Chapter goes on to describe the power of the Holy Spirit to deal with even the strongest counter-forces, hungers, fear. Love is stronger than fear. The need to allow the Spirit not only to displace the fear but to fill the place where the fear has been, to inhabit and remould and reshape that place. The fact that the Spirit or the flow of the Spirit is sustained by obedience. It is obedience that nourishes and sustains and perpetuates the blessing. Many are blessed by God, but do not receive, magnify and persist in the blessing because they do not allow the gifts of God to reshape their lives, and they do not reinforce the new shape of their lives through obedience.
God gives, but we have to be willing to receive. Receiving is not easy. All kinds of fears and fantasies and sabotaging behaviour get in the way and prevent us receiving, or persisting in receiving. The work of the Spirit may appear dramatic at times, but much of the time it is quiet, subtle and nuanced. The Spirit does not shout, it whispers, so we have to become still and quiet to receive it. We have to be prepared to clear away the rocks that block up the fountain. And then we have to be prepared to scrape away the sand that keeps silting up the channel, and then we have to be prepared to sit and listen to the voice of the water bubbling between the stones.
Are we willing to do this? To face the work of change? Genuine transformation guided by the Spirit of God? If we are not ready to let God change us, how can we expect God to change the world? If we are not willing to take responsibility for the praying that God wants to do in us, how can we blame the world for not taking steps towards justice and peace? No, the fact is that we do not want to change – we do not want to set out on the journey of prayer – we would rather know that other people are praying for us - special people are praying for us. We know that there is a hidden spring under the stones, but we do not clear away the stones, even though we are dying of thirst. Because our fear is stronger than our faith. We are afraid of what will happen once the water is released in us. What will happen once the flow of the water gets going and begins to change things.
And yet we are called to be living springs. We are called to be vessels of light. Lamps set on lampstands that give light to all in the house. We are called to be full of light, utterly radiant. Shining because there is no part of us that is not light. No part of us that is shadow or gloom or darkness. This is the vision. This is the calling. And this is our hearts’ desire. The longing that God has put within us. The longing that is part of what it means to be a child of God, made in the image of God. We can hear that longing. That is why we are here. The inner spring is calling to us. The voice of the waters. The voice of God speaking to us in the inner spring that wells up within our hearts. The inner spring of the Holy Spirit. There. Welling up. But also trapped, blocked, confined, staunched. Because we are too afraid to let it flow.
How can things be different for us? How can our prayer be different? The disciples did not need Jesus to teach them how to pray – they already had prayers – psalms, songs, traditional words. What they wanted was the depth and intimacy and generosity and abundance that they glimpsed in Jesus’ interaction with the Father. They wanted that abundance for themselves. That abundant compassion that would help their words to have an impact, that would fill their actions with power, that would make a difference to the situations and circumstances into which they moved. That was why they asked him to teach them to pray. Because they wanted, not words, not even the words of the Lord’s Prayer, but the words of eternal life.
Jesus points them in the right direction. This is a matter of inner attitude, not outward detail. The Pharisees – or some of them, like the one in the story, like the lawyer and others – had become obsessed with the fine detail. With outward circumstances. With consistency of interpretation. What do we do if….. Wanted to legislate for all circumstances so that they would always know what to do. So that there would always be a procedure to follow. So that there would never be any doubt, any grey areas, any areas of confusion. But that is the way of death. Go too far down that road and you are in danger of killing the Spirit with over-regulation. We channel the Spirit with the discipline of obedience. A deep, inner, rigorous and even sacrificial obedience that transforms us. But that does not give us the right to impose a detailed rule on others. Even if they are crying out to us – tell us what to think, tell us what to do. Because to others the detail is just a burden. And the burden kills the Spirit within them. No, what we have to do is to release them, energise them and inspire them to listen to the Spirit within them, so that, led and guided by it, they become capable of seeing what the Spirit is asking of them, and obeying it.
This is why Jesus gets so angry with those who worry about the external things, and who ask about social consequences, and matters of legality and authority and morality. Not because these things are unimportant – far from it. But because for the children of God all these things begin with the love of God expressing the heart of God and the mind of God. Get back to that, stay there, live from there, he is saying. Recapture your vision of the abundance of the Father, of the loving heart of the Father. Keep that image in your mind always, and live from that love, that generosity, that compassion, that hope. Keep that always in your mind and let it feed you. And as it feeds you, let it change you. Let it reshape your life, your priorities. Let it transform the way you think, the way you speak, the way you act. Let the Father’s heart pray in you and the words will no longer matter. You will no longer worry about whether or not you are saying the right words. You will speak and you will act, and you will radiate light. And your light will shine throughout the house